JY

things happened and i duno where i could express it....then i thought of here...

not suppose to be tis kind of arrows=.="

i still remember the day v 1st meet was in 1 of September 2009...it hv been more than a year now....in one year time, i had been hurt 3 times...haha...stupid me....duno y...i will always find a way to cover for all the things tat u did...maybe i wana keep ur image to always be a gd one....but yet....reality is often cruel...i heard things bout u from many ppl...ur frd...our frd...my frd....for now...i think i am quite clear for wat's happening now...from the day u break up wit ur ex...till now...16 November 2010..remember wat happened during june? during our birthdays...i noe tat u said ur ex is the one who is sending the sms...but the thing tat i am really upset of...u didnt even try to explain...not even once....u always show to others that nothing is happening between us....i understand tat...i am not the guy tat u wan...but y u wan to accept me at the 1st place? accept leave accept leave accept leave...and i am stupid enough to always go back to u cause i dont wan u to be alone...in the end...i am the one alone...haha...how pathetic...i noe tat the incident happened to u last year had a lot of impact to u and maybe u jz wan to find a person to be wit u...but it's not fair....for me and you...i always thinks tat i could forget u soon....but the soon seems didnt arrive yet...y i am thinking of a person tat didnt love me?or even think of me? i am jz a stupid guy who tried to believe a gal who dont care for my feelings at all...i laugh a lot...but sometimes...behind all the laughter...there will be sadness and sorrow....and frankly speaking, it's u who did tis to me...i am not myself anymore....sometimes i jz wanted to jz cried it out loudly...but wat's the use?i am tired...tired...tired...i always go to ur blog...hoping tat u would explain everything in ur blog...but in the end...nothing...it's jz like a dream....after u wake up from dream...nothing happen at all...